Here is Ashanti's video for the new single The Way That I love You. This video made me go through changes. I lived this. Want to know the trigger? The cell phone (like everything else) was in my name. We were married, 4 kids at home and one on the way. Owned two cars, a home, a business...things were going well. At least, that was the illusion. For some reason, I decided to open the cell phone bill. That's when I found out. Yes I called the numbers. Yes I talked to her.
The worst part was this. I had to hide my pregnancy, to get a job to pay off the $1000.00 cell phone bill I was left with. Well, there was also food shleter, clothing, utilities and other necessities for the kids I had to pay for. It's not like he was forced by the court to pay child support. The child support enforcement agency in NY is a waste of time. I lost time from work and pay, not to mention any lawyer's fees. He didn't even get a slap on the wrist. Who loses in infidelity? The parent that stays and the kids. Same ole, same ole.
I killed him a million different ways in my mind...just like Ashanti's character killed him in hers.
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
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I feel you but I only had one kid and I left cause he wouldn't go. I'm a big fan of Ashanti's cause I swear it seems like she is always writing a song about me..
When "Foolish" came out that's exactly what I was going thru..all that back and forward mess.. Then she came out with "Rain On Me" and I'm like dayum girl are you watching me..
And now this new one..the only thing that kept me from trying to kill my ex is my daughter and my fear of going to jail..
This struck a chord with me and my DH. I actually couldn't finish the video, I was getting too choked up.
I can't hear the song without getting chills up my spine. it's a great song (in theory) but it brings up a lot of painful memories...
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